Former Britney Spears personal assistant, Kalie Machado, 23, is coming forward with her tales of Britney’s crazy life and her desire to win back Kevin Federline.

Machado talked with Us magazine and described the heart wrenching details of the Spears - Federline divorce.

“She wanted so badly to have the father of her babies. When Britney thought about Kevin not wanting her, she would bawl. She would look at Sean and Jayden and say, ‘Where’s your daddy? I need help. Where’s your daddy?’“

Machado also mentioned that the boys were present when Spears and Federline had their last fight. Machado says Spears felt she was tricked into the situation and that Kevin played her like a fiddle. Brit followed Kevin to New York, toting her sons along, ready to take a stance.

“She stood up for herself, and it kind of backfired. That was what he wanted.”

Spears started her downward spiral about this time and couldn’t fathom moving on with her life. She hung her wedding dress on the wall in her bedroom and placed autographed photos of the the couple throughout her home.

“She would ask, ‘Why did he do this to me?’ It just made her crazy and depressed. . .she needs mental help.”

Kind of sad really. I mean, I know Britney is a trainwreck on a well lubed track, but I have a hunch Kevin drove her to that point.

If you recall when Brit and Kevin hooked up was about the time she started doing weird shit. I’d be willing to bet that Kevin was the one to introduce her to drugs, and once he left, he left her with an addiction and a broken heart. Never a good combination.

The girl needs to get away. Move to Sweden, to Australia, to Italy. . .anywhere but here. Hell, Montana would work too. Disappear for a year and get herself together. But she won’t because the paparazzi and the media give her the attention that she so intensely craves and needs.

I honestly think the best thing that could happen to her would be to lose the boys so she could take care of herself. Because if she doesn’t do that those boys may lose a mother, and Kevin, a paycheck.

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