Paula Goodspeed, the woman who tragically took her life in front of the home of Paula Abdul earlier this week, had reportedly contacted Paula Abdul more than 100 times in the past three years.

(Above: Goodspeed’s American Idol Audition)

Goodspeed, whose birth name was Sandra, changed her name 16 years ago to that of her ‘idol’. Since being ridiculed on American Idol, Goodspeed, 30, has sent Abdul numerous letters, has made dozens of phone calls and has visited her home on multiple occasions.

On the day she died she sent flowers.

Along with the arrangement, Goodspeed sent the following message,

“Love, J.T. Hope you’re doing great. Here’s my new cell number.”

J.T. Torregiani is Paula’s ex-boyfriend, the young restaurateur.

Paula called her ex-flame to ask why he had changed his number and that’s when she found out the flowers were not from him. They say she knew immediately who they were from.

On the other hand, Goodspeed’s family members are having a hard time believing the vibrant young woman killed herself. They say she was not a stalker, but a true fan.

Her niece, Sonja McIntyre, 20, says, “She was a good person. She’d give the shirt off her back for anyone who needed it. She was not suicidal. She was cheery. She was excited. She was coming back to Maine.”

Goodspeed is originally from Maine.

McIntyre adds that when she visited California her aunt took her to see Paula’s home. But she says there was nothing creepy about it. “Me and her went by Paula’s house a couple of times. That’s about it. She was showing me where she lived. We liked looking at the huge condos out there. Why they found her dead in her car near Paula Abdul’s house, I do not know. But I don’t believe my aunt killed herself.”

While in Los Angeles Goodspeed had worked with producer/songwriter Ed Faris in 2005 or 2006, who says she was “a bit off the wall.”

“I was hired by her singing coach to help Paula record some songs. She wore the craziest outfits. She’d show up to my home studio wearing fluorescent pants and skirts, with trinkets hanging off her jacket. She was a sweet person, very nice, but a little insecure.”

“She was a bit delusional thinking she could make a career out of this, but she was so incredibly determined, so [the singing coach] and I tried to encourage her. Paula did make a couple references to Paula Abdul, but nothing really out of the ordinary.”

He adds that while working with her she “broke down and cried several times…that was the last time I worked with Paula. I was shocked to hear about her death, I never thought it would come to that. It’s just a sad situation all around.”