Now that the husband of Amy Winehouse, Blake Fielder-Civil, is out of prison and into rehab, the former junkie believes it is best for the couple to separate.

He also admitted to being the one who got Amy hooked on drugs.

In a recent interview he confessed,

“I dragged Amy into it and without me there is no doubt that she would never have gone down that road. I ruined something beautiful. Now I have to let her go to save her life. I am not abandoning her. I am doing this out of love.

I have had to live with that for the past year that I have been in prison and I have got so much remorse.

I feel like killing myself. I feel like f***** dying.”

Listen to a clip of Blake’s interview here.

He has admitted that he turned one of the world’s best singer’s into a malnourished, scrawny, full-blown drug addict. He said that Amy only smoked a little weed before they hooked up.

“I made the biggest mistake of my life by taking heroin in front of her. I introduced her to heroin, crack cocaine and self-harming. I feel more than guilty.

The first time Amy took crack she asked me, ‘Can I try a bit of that?’ Crack is the nastiest drug. It makes you paranoid, unreasonable, edgy and totally suspicious of everyone. And you can get hooked on it straight away. But I was weak and an addict and I let Amy take some.

I didn’t stop it from happening. For that I take full responsibility. It became something we did as well as heroin. And then our lives fell apart.”

Blake also revisited the frightening first seizure that Amy suffered during the summer of 2007. He says his wife almost died in front of him.

“I was there when Amy suffered her first seizure. I still break down thinking about it. We had been taking drugs all day long. Heroin and crack.

I started crying and I lay her down in the recovery position. I cleared her airways to make sure she wasn’t choking. But her jaw was closed tight. I tried to stop her from biting her tongue when she was on the floor

It was heartbreaking, seeing someone you love more than yourself, someone you would die for, someone you would kill for on the floor shaking.”

He says when Amy finally came around, she had no idea who he was and was hateful.

“I will go to my grave with that picture of Amy asking me, ‘Who are you? Who are you?’ She didn’t know who I was. I told Amy, ‘I’m your husband’. I knew f***ing then that I had ruined something beautiful. It was all my fault. It was the worst thing that has ever happened to me in my life.”

Blake will be released from the rehabilitation clinic on December 30th, just in time for the new year. But he says that he won’t be spending New Year’s Eve with his wife.

“Now the most dignified thing I can ever do in my life is to release somebody I love from my f***ing grasp, from my clutches.

“When I see pictures of Amy and the state she’s in it tears my heart out. I just want to pick her up and help her. But I can’t..because I’m the man who caused it all. It scares me to death that I can’t fix Amy. But for her recovery I have to leave her alone. I will never stop wanting Amy and loving her and craving her. More than anything I am addicted to Amy.

I will do anything for her - and that includes walking away.”

Read more at News of the World.